Sunday, November 2, 2008

Suspended in air like some kind of plant.

So one thing I discovered about my Macbook today is that it uses magnets to stay shut. Now I knew this beforehand as it was detailed to me on various tech blogs, but it slipped my mind until this evening when I accidentally engaged the sleep mode by simply placing a magnet on the laptop body. This not only scared the shit out of me for fear that I had deactivated my new laptop with a magnet by mistake, but it also enlightened me as to where the magnets on the device are, and how powerful they are.

For instance shown here is a photo of a keychain LED light suspended in midair by the power of the magnet on the right side of the monitor. It is not especially heavy, but I would not expect it to dangle freely from the side of my monitor. Nor would I expect a chain dog collar to hang freely either, and yet here it is below.



Its quite surprising really. I wonder what else can hang from it?? 

Also I think its interesting that I can engage sleep mode without closing the laptop just by using a magnet. Although, I question how safe it is to do so, and so I'm not going to make a habit of doing it...ever. But its still interesting to me.

In the news

Sarah Palin skinned Joe Biden and wore him like a pantsuit.
My housemate is not willing to admit she's not a virgin and that she wants me.
Macs still cost too much.
And....
HOLY SHIT ON A FUCKING SANDWICH WITH A SIDE ORDER OF SHIT ITS MUTHA FUCKIN' ONE AM AGAIN!!!!
ITS 1 AM AGAIN!!!!!!

update: we still need to fix Jayson's time traveling car and there's wild dogs outside my window (for real)

Friday, October 24, 2008

Scooter Man is alive!

Friday, October 24th 2008. 11:30 PM
My faith in the Scooter Man restored.

Today is progressing poorly.

Its barely noon and already today I have split my lip, come short on cash for food, found out my CD's are warped so they spin funny in my CD player, and flattened a praying mantis with my car. Hopefully these negative events are just a prelude to something awesome that will make it all better, like say winning the lottery.

Edit: The day only got worse. But I don't really want to talk about it.

Monday, October 20, 2008

Phase 1: Collect underpants

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lol wut. My macbook came in today. Its pretty much amazing. I am afraid that it might replace my PC.

Wait...is that a bad thing? XP

Monday, October 13, 2008

Let me wipe that egg off my face, please.

So the plan was to begin tracking the times that the Scooter Man drove past my home, in an attempt to figure out some sort of schedule for his nightly routine. The only problem is that I haven't heard the familiar groan of his engine since that post. I hope he's only taking a week off; it would be very embarrassing if I never heard him again.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

From AIM: Rants About College 1

(10:27:37 PM) misgivenmerit: since when does wearing a tie-dyed bandana allow you to decide what is just and fair!?
(10:27:43 PM) misgivenmerit: man... the people here..
(10:27:47 PM) CorneliusThePig: lol
(10:27:55 PM) misgivenmerit: but seriously though
(10:28:26 PM) misgivenmerit: this bitch with a tie-dyed bandana was saying certain laws on campus are a bunch of bullshit
(10:28:38 PM) misgivenmerit: eg riding skateboards on the roads
(10:28:57 PM) misgivenmerit: after we had like 5 people die last year from skateboard related accidents ON CAMPUS!
(10:29:18 PM) misgivenmerit: she was also saying how there's too many cops
(10:29:25 PM) misgivenmerit: well... it makes senses there's more cops
(10:29:28 PM) misgivenmerit: there's more students now
(10:29:41 PM) misgivenmerit: I mean... isn't that what police departments do?
(10:29:55 PM) misgivenmerit: employ more officers when a certain amount of people move in?
(10:30:38 PM) misgivenmerit: really, I think she just wants to sound cool and rebellious with her tie-dye bandana, sun glasses, liberal art classes, car, iPod, rich parents, etc
(10:30:55 PM) misgivenmerit: I mean, then the bitch goes about buying a bunch of expensive shit downtown
(10:30:59 PM) misgivenmerit: WTF man?!
(10:31:04 PM) misgivenmerit: I'll show you a real rebel!
(10:31:18 PM) misgivenmerit: *loads shotgun... and wears a tie... THAT'S RED!*
(10:32:27 PM) misgivenmerit: but seriously
(10:33:11 PM) misgivenmerit: you would think "politically" involved (At least they say they are) people would know more about the situation
(10:33:17 PM) misgivenmerit: also, the people the cops stop
(10:33:19 PM) misgivenmerit: I noticed
(10:33:24 PM) misgivenmerit: they are always crying and whining
(10:33:42 PM) misgivenmerit: like this one guy this morning, he was jumping up and down and crying
(10:33:56 PM) misgivenmerit: 'cause he's getting ticketed for riding his skateboard
(10:34:06 PM) misgivenmerit: (during rush hour, I should add)
(10:34:31 PM) misgivenmerit: personally, I was happy he was pulled aside, traffic started moving smoothly again
(10:34:45 PM) misgivenmerit: and really, the ticket is only $40
(10:34:58 PM) misgivenmerit: that's nothing compared to "real" tickets
(10:35:23 PM) misgivenmerit: especially, after... FIVE PEOPLE DIED ON THE SAME FUCKING HILL HE WAS STAKING ON!
(10:35:49 PM) misgivenmerit: seriously, I don't like how college is so open to those that can pay for it
(10:36:13 PM) misgivenmerit: I think it should be open to those who can use it/actually conduct themselves in a university
(10:36:54 PM) misgivenmerit: maybe I'm old fashion, but a university isn't for status, experiences, or fun, its for expression and growth of thought and ideals
(10:37:06 PM) misgivenmerit: see, I support the hippies of the old, they did this in the UCs
(10:37:25 PM) misgivenmerit: they opened up social justices, human rights, and other fields of study
(10:37:46 PM) misgivenmerit: now these "hippies", they have no cause or point
(10:37:58 PM) misgivenmerit: and yes... I should post this on the blog!
(10:38:00 PM) misgivenmerit: GOOD NIGHT!

Wait! Please take me with you!

There is a man who lives around the city somewhere. He rides a scooter.

Almost every night, after midnight, this man drives down my street and passes my house on his way to his destination.

I do not know where he comes from.

I do not know where he is going.

But I am going to find out.

This begins the chronicle of The Scooter Man.

Monday, September 29, 2008

Whatever It Takes

If you noticed the span for this week's theme, you might noticed its not an official week as Jayson did.

[23:49] CorneliusThePig: the week starts on sunday
[23:49] CorneliusThePig: which is the 28th
[23:49] CorneliusThePig: lol
[23:49] misgivenmerit: whatever
[23:49] misgivenmerit: 7 days, week
[23:49] misgivenmerit: same thing
[23:50] misgivenmerit: HEY MAN!
[23:50] misgivenmerit: THIS IS FOR SURVIVAL!
Its for the blog!

Nevertheless, I reflect on that survival, may it be physical, emotional, academical, you will do whatever it takes. I change the formal definition of a week for this blog, stole food in the dorms, call my girlfriend everyday, take reckless shortcuts through the woods, bring only one bag of stuff, live way below my limit, etc. Why? Because in the end, I want to be successful. Sometimes being successful means to do what you least like.

I believe, as any creature, survival is to stay alive. Often, to stay alive means to do something we don't want to, e.g. eating our veggies to killing something.

All in all, we are facing pretty interesting times (as all people do of our age). Hence, all human beings done one thing or another in the name of survival.

Monday, September 22, 2008

Lets make a connection, baby.

I never got around to posting last week, so this is a bit late.

I've been in school for three weeks now (Today starts the fourth if it helps make more sense) and I've begun to notice something that to me, while depressing, is also interesting.

To recap, I'm taking a basic Health class on Mondays, and a class called "Understanding Cinema" on Wednesdays. Since I've been out of school for so long I opted to take only 2 classes so that I didn't overwork myself. One Academic, and one class for my Major.

The thing I've noticed and which I think is both depressing and strange is that I am actually looking forward to school on Mondays because I enjoy my health class, and I don't enjoy going to school on Wednesdays because my Cinema class is dreadful. The instructor drones on and on, he insults the students through jokes, he repeats himself, brings Politics into the mix, and just overall his teaching method is a bit...uncomfortable. Plus the seats hurt my ass and we always end up staying after the class gets out because he talks so much.

Meanwhile, the Health class is informative, the teacher is kind, and it lets out early, or at the very least on time. I like being able to say with confidence that I WILL be home around 10 on Mondays, where as my other class sometimes stretches me to getting home at 10:30 or later. Its really frustrating.

However, despite the fact that I enjoy Health more, I feel no connection to any of my classmates in the Health class. In fact I don't know a single person's name in that class, and have talked to no one besides the teacher. In Cinema, I talk with a lot of the students around me about all sorts of things both related and non-related to the course.

Its an interesting comparison between the two classes, how I enjoy one for its education and the other for socializing. At least its interesting to me.

Friday, September 19, 2008

Lack Of Sleep

Simply post, I can't sleep. Thinking how most of the people I wanted to see over the summer, I was unable to caused me to cancel plans to see them. However, this will make it about two years without seeing them. How strange time is always a factor in staying connected, that there's always a time limit... Then again it makes perfect senses: our relativity.

I also was reminded about the gaps of time and distance; most of my friends don't use the Interweb as much as I wish, yet without seeing or talking, we can still be friends? Therefore, we must ask: "what is a friend?"

Oh well, enough with that for now... Btw, I'm debating on setting up a Skype-phone...

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Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Sounds good, but...

I have noticed this blog is now getting big on the iPhone (and not big enough on cowbell), and to be honest, I like the idea. Having a miniature, yet kinda gimped computer is pretty awesome, especially when it integrates all it's features pretty well. However, one thing holds me back from getting it: that freaken touchscreen.

Sure, I love my DS (well, I would love it more if my cat didn't decide it wanted to snack on the charger cable) and touchscreens can be pretty cool, but having nothing but a touchscreen is a pretty bad design choice. Having to swipe through menus (not lightly, but with force) is just annoying and unnessecery, and could have just been fixed with some arrow keys. Having to punch in each individual letter on the screen is also pretty sucky, especially when you could just have a keypad. At least it has a power button just in case the OS decides to freeze so you can actually turn it off.

Overall, I find the iPhone ok, and if they just made a version with some actual buttons, I would probably like it. Still wouldn't buy it, because I'm cheap and I'd rather use a laptop, but would look upon it more favorably.

Speaking of computers, my machine is getting some nice upgrades. I've ordered more RAM, which should knock it up to 3 gigs, and I'll be getting a new video card so Team Fortress 2 will stop crashing my computer. I'm kinda amazed, my machine will actually be competent now. Just hope my internet connection can keep up (it never does).

Anyway, back to haxing teh server of life.

P.S. I have no idea if Edward already brought up my points in his blog, since I was too lazy to check, but I don't care much anyway.

I am a consumer whore.

What Edward says about me is true. My needs for a cell phone are pretty basic. I want a phone I can talk on. A phone that has a camera, bluetooth, MMS and SMS. If you give me that, I will be able to use the phone effectively.

...But thats not to say I would not love everything else that phones do these days. The internet in the palm of my hand? An mp3 player? Those would be awesome if most cellphones didn't suck when it comes to that.

Which is why I would get an iPhone if money was no object. Because it does what most other smartphones can do, but it does it better.

As far as laptops are concerned, I'm just going to get a macbook. FUCK IT. I'll get an iphone too.

...just as soon as I get a job to pay for it all.

To Each: Their Own; To Me: My iPhone

Awhile ago, Jayson and I were talking about this slider phone he wanted. I told him I didn't like it, bringing up my want for a smartphone. In rebuttal, he brought up the fact he doesn't want or need a smartphone, that he desires a phone with basic functions: Call, Text, SMS, a little internet. I then brought up my needs for something more. This led to my posting. At this age and time of my life, it is when one realizes their pursuits and futures. Leading to notice what kind of style and gear they would need! Therefore, this post is a list of pieces of technology I want for the future. Of course, by then, technology should be better, but I (and Jayson, who should have a similar post) will use current devices or describe a device we want/need.

Smartphone, namely the iPhone: Often, people tell me: Why you need a smartphone? Its just a computer, just smaller. That's the point! It's a smaller, kinda computer! It fulfills the basics of a phone: calling, text, voicemail, etc. However, my reasons for wanting/needing a smartphone was first brought about after my summer quarter at UCSC. I noticed, as a student, I prefer to have my calendar/agenda close. This brings up the whole: Why not just use a paper agenda dumbass money-wasting noob [fanboy for my iPhone... despite the fact most of my friends know about my love for Linux]?!” I have a list of reason good sir... or dare I say piece of shit, son of a bitch, I hope you burn in hell, sir?
  1. Paper agenda = pages. Paper pages are prone to wear, tear, and such when its carrier is moving around a lot. I use a messenger bag (since high school) to protect my papers from that, but seeing how much I end up just carry my agenda outside of it, it didn't matter how well protected it would be in my bag, I was too busy writing onto it.
  2. Updates and outsources. UCSC, like most universities I hope, uses the interweb a lot to inform students on events, activities, exams, and required procedures. Almost, many of these things aren't plan before the quarter starts, but is later put on the school's website. Before my iPhone and something called .cis or feeds, I would normally find out about such a thing the day before or of, which isn't fun. With the wonders of Google calendar and jailbreaking, my iPhone is always updated. Also, it shares the same dates as the calendar on my laptop, making sure that whether in my dorm or on the bus, I have my schedule.
  3. Being able to read. I'm not going to lie, my handwriting sucks... especially in a hurry and in the rain/walking/on the bus/etc. However, my typing/texting is fast and easy to read! Do I really need to explain the benefit of that?!

Wow... that's a pretty long explanation on just ONE feature of a smartphone. Other reasons I like smartphones are:
Internet: it allows me to lookup on wikipedia to not look stupid, IM friends (on www.meebo.com), read about stuff, check online stuff on the class' website in class while still having room for my notebook (paper or electronic one), and check on my bank accounts.
Documents: A smartphone lets you save documents and such, so I can save maps, pdfs, pictures, and other files to look at when I need to. Also, this allows me to take notes on it.
Applications: Especially with the App Store from Apple with my iPhone, I can buy use/fun applications. From balance sheets to keep my budget to just an application to send stuff to my blog like pictures and entries, applications make the price worth it. When being on the road, close or near house/dorm. I take comfort knowing my friends and family are closer due to the wonders of technology.

Of course, there's other things I like about smartphones, namely my iPhone (a smartphone is one with an OS that has functioning application that allow it to behavior much like a computer, so an iPhone is one you douchebags!). The touchscreen and camera (with applications). I just like the touchscreen since it gives me a better interaction with my media, giving me that feeling of control. Also, I don't have to worry about using a stylus or clicking keys. And I like the camera for the apps packaged with it that allow me to email pics, email pics as postcards, or post them here! Yet, I confess I would love 3G and GPS... but not the new iPhone. I would willing drop my iPhone for a touchscreen smartphone with Android, but that's for the future. Nevertheless, there's some of my points for wanting a smartphone, its a phone and a PDA at the same time... don't tell me no one needs that.

Next, laptop. I someday dream of having a laptop with 3G for internet without wifi. Though, I shall bring up now that I want a ultraportable and/or a netbook. Why? Well, from riding airplanes, metro buses and trains, Greyhound Buses, to just in a friend's car on a roadtrip, a ultraportable laptop is just dandy. Its doesn't weight you down with mass nor lack of functionality. Of course, there's the give of features for gaming... but I doubt I would be gaming while working or studying, that's just me.

What do I have in mind? A Thinkpad from the X-series and the Intel Classmate 3. I shouldn't go into too much detail, but the Thinkpad X(whatever number) is a ultraportable and the Intel Classmate 3 is a Tablet Netbook, meaning a touchscreen that will allow for note-taking and drawing (the Classmate is meant for a classroom environment).

Lastly, an eReader. A device just for reading... but its not just one book... its many! And more! With the Kindle, you can subscribe to magazines, blogs, newspapers, etc. I believe that we should have one device for just reading the paper or a book, for it not only separates us from the internet/computer like a real book, isolation away from other things allows an eReader to have your full attention.

So, let's review the list:
  • Smartphone
  • Ultraportable Laptop
  • Classmate 3
  • eReader

All in all, many will say these are the stuff you would find in a Road Warrior's bag, and I am growing to think I might become one. With hopes of med school and traveling, along with friends and family at home, I need to rough out the traveling and stay connected, hence I need devices as tough and smart as me.

Back To The Beginning

Back To The Beginning

Well, here I go again. Two weeks before my second year at the university: packing up, getting nags about the distance, regretting a little. It's not that I hate the University of California, Santa Cruz, but I grown to dislike being a student there at times. I don't like the strange “new” people, from their rich families in SF or wherever in NorCal. I don't like being all alone, far away from home. Namely, it reminds me of my failure... how two of my friends gotten into dream universities with the same classes, less activities, and more rule following than creativity than I did, and yet I got rejected from the same schools, put on the waiting list for Stanford, and sent to UCSC. Banished to the woods it seems. I left in the summer. Completing summer session, I was proud and happy, but I returned to find my friends and family missing me, and I found out how much I missed them. After the whole year was finished, I came back with an average GPA and a broken mindset. Wondering what I could've done right, what I done wrong. About how I behaved. In the end, I lost my gustiness in going to the wayward woods and living like a hermit.

Now, I'm back with my former love after learning lessons on the move. I'm entering the woods with my head not down, nor high, but low and forward, ready to fight. There's no more youth for those who are young, how ironic. Yet, we must all bravely march to the beginning of a battle of an on going war. I have new goals realize and improvements to make. I have reconfirm my faith in my friends, family, and beliefs. Yet, I must reminded, of how I found out “Those who do good, get get good things in return”, and as for me, when I was younger, I did not do good like Jessica or Gil, instead I tried to be rebellious and make my own path through the woods, to just find myself having to cut my way back to the road.

Higher education.

Those who are at all familiar with my life (read: not many people) know that I dropped out of highschool at the start of my final semester of Senior year. I had only one semester to go, and a whopping 2 classes to finish (Economics, and one semester of PE) before I graduated. I believe I was taking 4 other classes for fun (Web Developement, Using New Media, AP English Literature, Drama). It would seem that a person on the precipice of graduation would not drop out with so few classes to go. This is a decision that I regret.

I was in really good standing to graduate. I was popular, my grades were up (except for that AP Lit class, but I had previously finished all my required English credits, so an F in that class did not effect my graduation), and whats more I had a ton of senior activities to look foreward to.

But I chose to leave school because I was no longer happy. Yes I was popular, yes people knew who I was, but for the most part the school had gone to shit, and overall I was just not a happy person. I thought that if I dropped out and finished my remaining two classes at a charter school, I could get out early and get a jumpstart on college.

Well, as it turns out we moved shortly after I started the charter schooling, and through a combination of a truley evil teacher, a fuckup with school district regulations, and other nonsense, I went from 2 classes to 5 classes, and an easy 1.5 month graduation suddenly became a full semester of work.

So I did not formally recieve highschool credit until the end of August of last year, after my former classmates had all been done with school for a month. What was supposed to get me on the road early ended up holding me back.

Frustrated and dissapointed and just generally pissed off at a lot of things (moving away from my friends, not getting a job that I wanted, and having a terrible school situation) I neglected furthering my education in favor of sitting on my ass for a year and being a vegetable.

I have to say this is both good and bad. I'm glad I got to take a break from school, and I'm glad I have not had many responsibilities up to this point. But on the other hand I am upset with myself, because my relationship with some of my closest friends has really drifted in the year since college began for everyone else. I feel as though they judge me negatively for my lack of schooling, and when I finally announced a month ago that I planned to enroll this fall, they expressed a lot of happiness. One girl said she had simply lost hope for me. Until now of course.

College is kind of scary. The fact that I'm paying for it puts added pressure not to fuck up. Also, my grade is based on so few assignments that I have to stress how important each one is to my grade as a whole. In Understanding Cinema, I have 3 tests that make up the whole of my grade, plus a supplimental assignment if I wish to receive an A (all students start with a B). Worse yet is my Health class, in which my entire grade is based on the Final exam, as well as a research paper.

Part of me loves this. No more homework, no more essays, no more BS. But part of me hates it, because now I am going to be so fucking stressed to know absolutely everything at the end of the year that I'm going to shit my pants.

Still, it beats having to work my ass off every single night over something that I couldn't give a shit about. Homework has, and always will be stupid to me.

I really like the environment. Its something I'm surprised at, actually. In the three days that I have been on campus, I've talked to a lot of people who's names I never got, people who don't know me any more than I know them. I like that most of them are willing to talk about whatever the hell is going on in their lives without even getting to know the person they are telling, simply to pass the time. Its nice.

...and the fact that they have all been cute ladies doesn't hurt.

I really want an excuse to go to school more often. I love it there. I'm considering adding a class or getting a job on campus because I actually feel like my life is going somewhere when I'm at school. It reminds me of childhood in a weird way. I think its the fact that most of the trees drop seapods and the smell reminds me of my K-8 years.

But I'm not going to jump the gun simply because I haven't actually begun to work on any of my classwork. So I don't know how involved it really is.

...Which reminds me, I have to read for my Cinema class before Wednsday.

Monday, June 23, 2008

Critquing Criticisms of Criticism

Hey, I'll be honest. I'm very critical. I'm always stating my opinion on various topics and I constantly point out mistakes or things that just don't work from my perspective. No one hears this more then my sisters and they get pissed that I constantly criticize things (I think it's because I'm always criticizing the stuff they like, but that's besides the point). I'm going to take this time to examine the reasons they tell me to stop criticizing and show how they are pretty much untrue, since I've seen these reasons pop up from other people and they need a good pwning.

First, they think that it's bad to criticize the works of others. I'll admit, there are some bad criticisms people make at times. Saying "that sucks" and giving no reason other then "because it does" is a pretty bad criticism. However, it's better to classify that as a complaint rather then a critique, since it lacks any sort of real support. Now, something like "I didn't like that story because the plot was hard to understand" is a real criticism since it has some logical backing.

Besides that, criticisms are extremely useful to the person who made the work as shows the creator things they need to work on. While just saying "it's good" or "it's bad" doesn't help at all, analyzing the work and pointing out flaws allows the person who made it to improve on their future work or fix their existing one. I know this from experience, since I get really pissed when I get to the revision step in my school essays and all I hear is "it's good." So really, criticisms are better for the person who made the work then just complaints or mindless praise (which is exactly what my sisters do).

Another response I hear all the time is this one: "You have no right to criticize their work since you don't know how to make it and you don't know what the person who did went through." So, apparently, I can't have an opinion on something unless I make it myself. Makes perfect sense right? (/sarcasm) Ignoring the fact that everyone should have a right to their own opinion, lets think about this for a second. If, for example, you couldn't enjoy a movie unless you are a director, then why would you watch movies in the first place? If you don't make movies, then you wouldn't watch them because you wouldn't enjoy it. And if movies were only made for movie makers, what'd be the point? It'd be like giving a computer to someone who makes computers. All in all, if you don't make something, you still have a right to experience it and form your own opinion on it.

Now on to that knowing the process part. When you turn in your homework at school, does your teacher really care how long it took you or how you were feeling while doing it? Maybe, but will it affect your grade? Hell no. If I were judging the process of how something was made, I would care what happened during production. But I'm not, I'm judging the final complete piece. If the creator of the piece starts telling you what they went through while making their work, then they're not completely satisfied with it and they're just making excuses so you don't judge it as harshly. If they didn't find their work good enough, it wouldn't be out on the market. To sum it up, what happened during the creation of a piece is almost completely meaningless when judging the outcome.


In conclusion, my sisters are retarded. If someone tries to pull this stuff on you, go smack them in the face with knowledge! Or just smack them in the face. Whichever you prefer.

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Gilded Wings

Several years passed since the rebellion:
a childish war over silly ideas,
things have settled; instead of shooting our own,
we shoot others.

A young boy, out of Williamston, only nineteen;
He enlisted into the ranks of the infantry:
he rates only an Airman First Class.
He was a smart kid in the dumb time.

Studied at an academy, he knew a little:
some physics, can do math, built a radio;
his education was no where near perfect,
he just listened to the talks of old wise men.

He stayed at an university for a year,
that was all his mother can pay for.
Now he's off to fight for his wage.
His enlistment, some wit he will gain soon enough.

Dark blue like his heart was his uniform,
leaving home and flying to far off places.
The stripes of his rank were as green as his experience in battle.
He was a good kid for a place for bad men.

He served on the Federation's Air Ship Louis:
FAS Louis' mission of the day was simply,
drop off men on this island that the Federation
wants to take. Just a normal operation.

How wrong were the tacticians!
Airplanes appeared from the port side,
gunning at the metal hull. Crew ran able insanely,
in fear the the hull was going to give to the bullets.

Plans changed, before getting just a blizzard of noise,
FAS Louis was ordered to be a decoy.
This transportation mission was now just suicide,
the radio was broken...

The crew had no way to transmit their position;
the radio room was port side,
and the airplanes banged up that side good.
Crewmen already died on that side.


The brave soldiers to be dropped
fought on the deck of the airship,
trying to gun down the airplanes.
Our young airman was starboard... waiting for fate.

“Airman!” said an older man, dressed for combat:
he was a sergeant with a crazy look in his eyes.
“I want you on my squad! We are going to scavenge
the radio and bring it here!”

The airman could not refuse the death sentence,
the radio was their only hope... all their lives
depend on a box. How else would they call for help?
The unkindness* of planes weren't.

So our airman followed the sergeant and four soldiers
to the main deck, out in the open air.
The ship was divided, without a second thought, into
three sections, each independent from another.

To reach the left hall, one must go down stairs into it.
The men counted to three, then ran out of the hatch,
into the open air and range.
Our airman ran the fastest, not caring he shot a man die.

Bullets rain from above onto foolish men who stayed.
Despite the weight of his iron boots, our airman was
first. Then the sergeant. Lastly, only one soldier.
The others were lost.

The hull of the port side was blown open.
The men could only pray this wasn't folly.
They quickly ran to the radio room,
surrounded by the sound of wind.

If it wasn't for the iron boots and vests...
well... thank God the Federation gave them.
The three men stood in the radio room:
The sergeant grabbed a metal box.

“This should work boys! Now to get this thing to the bridge!”

There was a sudden boom, and it felt intensely hot.
The airplanes started to fire missiles into the opening
that was the left hull. The men quickly opened the door
to smoke and flames, through they must go.
The men ran for their lives, a line needless to say.
The sergeant held the radio tight to himself,
not to let it be lost to the sky. Suddenly,
an explosion was behind the airman.

He looked behind, he was always ahead of the squad...
probably out of fear of his life.

The soldier was gone...
The sergeant was only pieces of a whole.
Yet, in his state, the sergeant took off his iron vest,
wrapping it around the radio, to keep it from flying away.

The sergeant looked at the airman, “... survive...”
before he flew away into the blue vacuum.

The boy crawled to the radio, weeping.
He carried the thing to the main deck;
he was in a daze, from loss and chaos.
Suddenly soldiers crowd the boy.

He was carried into the bridge,
holding on to the radio.
The captain told them to follow him to his quarters.
With no care, all on his table were on the floor.

Quickly a man took the radio from our boy,
placed it on the table, then opened the box.
The boy was so lost of everything that happened,
but he saw the captain slapped the man.

The man was an engineer, trying to fix
the broken radio. The radio was beat up
from the attacks and the boy's experience
didn't help.

However, the boy slowly walked to the radio,
all in the room just stared, as he tinkered
the inners of the life saving box.
The captain nervously turned it on.

A voice talked through the box,
everyone smiled but the boy...
he fainted... observing his head,
something hit him good.

The boy would wake up to glided wings next to the landed airship.
The radio allowed the captain to tell their position.
The glided wings were of airplanes that came to their rescue.
Now the ship was in an airfield for repairs.

A hero, he was called.
The next day, he was dressed up in formal uniform.
It was plain and white, till the captain gave him a
medal and some fancy awards to add some color.

Our airman was now a Petty Officer,
but no longer a boy. After the ceremony,
he looked up at the blue sky. In the air,
is where loss and gain takes place... a dream and a nightmare.

*Unkindness is an obsolete term for a flock of ravens

Friday, June 20, 2008

Icarus and Daedalus

Above the academy, over the air and sea
exists a blue horizon stained with red.
He was young at the time, nevertheless
a witness he was...

In the sea, awaits two airships, asleep
with their sails and flags down.
Militia Air Ship Daedalus and Icarus they were,
guarding the lives of Williamston.

The ships were knights in shining armor:
metal hulls with wooden decks. Glass
shields the captain and crew on one deck.
Rigged around the ships were beautiful wings and cloth.

A father commands MAS Daedalus...
his son masters MAS Icarus.
They protect the skies and seas...
till this day.

From the sky, fire rained down on Williamston.
Oh God, all was engulf in flames as raiders
flew over the city; death invaded:
black smoke and sails filled the sky.

Like angels, Daedalus and Icarus rose their sails,
off into the horizon they were, accelerating in the sea.
Then, like a glorious bird, the ships flew up, and rose
with hot air released from their mass into their sails.

Quickly, the Daedalus and Icarus circled and charged
into the ranks of the black sails and flags and smoke.
Fools and cowards cannot be in the air,
for they must watch fears reveal themselves.

Daedalus fired its cannons straight ahead and aside,
attempting to burn away the ailment in the sky.
The father commanded to free the earth from the
bombs of above.

Icarus swiftly flew into the enemy,
bravest aviators were they:
airmen from the wings of Icarus jumped onto
the decks of our enemy.

Oh, how brave was the frigate Icarus,
as the enemies' battleship prepared to release hell
Icarus flew below its hull, and suffered...
Fire rained down on Icarus as it shielded Williamston.

The father could only watch his son crash into the sea.

Night has fell and so has the flames:
Daedalus nestled in the soft waters as we mourn.
Williamston was saved, but for what cost?
A son.

Daedalus' captain stood before us,
all were survivors that stood in union square.
The militia captain broke down into tears,
he cried out he'll never fly again.

Discarded the rank and silver wings,
his uniform, he striped of command and meaning.
Without his son, he lost the will for flight.
“Oh God, why must you do this to me?”

The schoolboy watchs, as the moonlight
slowly shined upon him. He carried the story
of the tragic tale of Daedalus and Icarus.
A weight he will bring to the heavens...
when he sets sail.

Friday, June 13, 2008

Homecoming

So after about a year of moving out of the house to live in the dorms of UCSC, I am finally coming home for an actual stay, not just a short break/visit. I can't help but be nervous, yet happy to finally return to my birthplace. I had many great adventures there and here in Santa Cruz. I will most definitely miss Santa Cruz, but I miss Long Beach too. Nevertheless, that's my story of the year, the end of a year one of college and living on my own in UC Santa Cruz.

Monday, June 9, 2008

Home again.

Now that I'm back in Van Nuys and I have gotten some sleep, I think its time I put up some pictures! I'm uploading the images onto the shared music photostream instead of my own personal one. The reason being, I forgot the login information when I was in Santa Cruz and didn't have access to it.

I'm going to post a few pictures that I thought turned out pretty cool, and as before the rest of the photos will be located here.

This post will be under construction as I lay out the basics, so if you happen to see it and it looks a little fucked up, then maybe you check this blog too often :P

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I took this on the way to Santa Cruz, but I don't remember how close I was. You don't really see things like this in southern California, especially not Van Nuys. I thought it was pretty neat looking.

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The beach I mentioned, with that rock formation that I thought was so cool. It was like a little grotto or something. Most of this is not visable during high tide, and a lot of the sealife we encountered was living on the wall of that structure at a point where, normally, it would have been underwater.

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Another shot up close. Notice the muscles clinging to the rocks, and the seaweed stuff growing on the other rocks. I assume when the tide is high those are floating straight upwards, but are still attached to the rocks.

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A doorway to the coast. Like I said, most of that is underwater normally, you can even see where the cutoff is.

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A not-so-giant enemy crab.

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Its hiding!

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Barnacles living on Muscles living on the rock formation at sea. I think this says a lot about coexistence. :P

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Starfish! We saw lots of these.

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Edward looking at the rocks and ocean. See all that green stuff? More of what I started calling "funky rock hair"

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This is when we were in the woods. Edward relaxing at the stream.

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We found a little rickety bridge, and I made Edward cross it because he weighs less than I do, and when I was on it I got scared it might crack under me. It had nothing to do with the field mouse that came out of the bridge. (I wanted to pet that thing!)

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Thats about as far as I got before I decided I didn't want to break the bridge.

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One of the many springs along the stream.

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I wanted to climb up this fallen tree, but it went about 10 feet into the air at its highest point, and got pretty narrow, and Edward didn't think it was a good idea. My balance is not so great.

And as I said above, you can look at the rest of the photos here.

Also, I managed to find the forest we were in on Google's street view. You can check that out here. This is where we entered the forest, after parking the car about 100 yards back down the street on a dirt patch with some mailboxes.

Sunday, June 8, 2008

Adventuring in Santa Cruz

Okay, so as Jayson pointed out, he came here to Santa Cruz in order to explore shit... and damn, we explored shit.

Today, we went to a army surplus store in Mountain View, to end up in Campbell, and we were very much amazed by the suburb. I was so amused, more by the fact we never heard of it, that I wiki(pedia)-ed on my iPhone, ending up to find out that Campbell was one of the most robust ecomonic spots of the southern Silicon Valley.

We later found out that the surplus store won't open for an hour, so we ended up looking around Campbell's famous (at least according to the wikipedia article) open-air shopping center. And for some reason, Barnes and Nobel cried out to us, so we went there. We entered realizing we didn't want books, only to end up buying Steampunk, Twenty Thousand Leagues Under the Sea, Frankenstein, and Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde.

Afterwards, Jayson brought goggles at the surplus store, while I brought a navy wooly-pully (tactical sweater). There were two jokes to this whole situation:
1) we went through all of this (and this will explain the books as well) for Jayson's interest in Steampunk.
2) I finally got my wooly-pully, after searching since last November, in the middle of the summer!

Afterwards, we left, going to the CA-1, the spot of today's geohash. We ended up finding out the geohash is off limits, so Jayson and I just drove off. We ended up driving into Bonny Doon, what I told Jayson was mainly country with a few homes. Driving into the woods, and up into Bonny Doon, I warned Jayson that we have no cellphone signal, which was bad, since the iPhone actually saved our lives a few times--mainly since it had maps and I had a compass.

We were pretty much enchanted by the area; we enjoyed looking around the community, that I mentioned Jayson many times that we (Sean, him, and me) should get a house out here for when we all go to UCSC. We were pretty freaked out by the bus stops, and yes there were bus stops in the woods, buses to Santa Cruz.

We ended up parking (and the parking spots were basically dirt mounts off the road with parking signs) and walking into the woods, following a stream. It was pretty awesome, we have pictures that will be posted later.

After that adventure, we went downtown for pizza, only to end up finding an antique sale out in the street. There, we ended up finding a messenger bag for Jayson and I brought the book Song of the Sky. Then we met my friend Rafael, my limo driver to the airport at times, and he told Jayson about his work on ecofriendly limos, and his experience with old school sailboats and electric cars, which got both of them into a talk about steampunk when Rafael brought it up... I of course was a bit upset, since I was really into the machinery that Rafael brought up, and less about the fashion of it (though, I like it).

On a related note, Jayson and I earlier had an little debate on what steampunk needs today. He said it needed more punk and less Victorian Age. While I thought that it needed less punk, and a lot more TRUE historical accuracy-- namely less Victorian Age, and more Edwardian Age to WWI-- more electricity and practicality, and way less wearing gears and goth clothes.

Anyways, we later went to get pizza, and then walked to the lagoon and explored it. Yes, we have pictures. We later walked the railroad tracks nearby, only finding it lead us nowhere.

After all was said and done, I, as the navigator the whole time, briefed Jayson on how to get home and wished him good luck and hopefully he'll be back online to put the pics up.

[PS: I hated how Jayson made me be sober from liquor, smoking, and painkillers for this weekend for the adventure <<]

Saturday, June 7, 2008

Geohashing in Santa Cruz!

If anyone is familiar with the comic XKCD, then you probably know what Geohashing is. If not, read up on it. Its pretty interesting. And really fun.

I am currently in Santa Cruz visiting my buddy and co-author Edward at UCSC. Since I am here for an entire weekend, and since we are both avid fans of the XKCD comic series, its only natural that the two of us would trek into the wilderness and attempt to reach parts unknown.

But before the geohashing adventure there was much to do. The day began with a drive to the local Natural Bridges state beach, about a mile south of the college. Its a neat little beach and in the early morning hours on a weekend no one is interested in being there for any reason other than Yoga and Tai-Chi. Except for us. We wanted to explore. And so we did.

For future reference, there is an album of our escapade here.

I'm pretty burned out right now so I can't recall every little last detail, but heres a list of stuff we did.

-went to the beach
-climbed into the strange rock formation cave thingy
-looked at many indigenous sea creatures
-took pictures of said creatures
-climbed across a rocky ledge narrowly avoiding plummeting into a lake
-hiked back around the lake and into the woods

At one point when hiking through the woods we came across a strange recording device on the ground. We joked around about someone's last words being on the thing, but it didn't have a battery so at this point we have no clue what is on it.

We continued to hike back towards civilization, and it was after about half an hour of hiking that Edward realized we were waist deep in a thicket of Poison Oak. Thankfully though we hah been keeping our arms at our faces and had a lot of clothes on, so we were not affected. But it was pretty funny to think about.

We made it back to the car and then began to prepare for our trip. The coordinates of the geohash were in the middle of the San Francisco Bay (it was the best nearby option) and so we opted to plan to drive past it on a bridge and say that we did our best. The plan however was to head to an Apple Store, a 7-11, and use no GPS locater, in order to gain a few achievements above the mere geohasher. The problem is, we accidentally arrived at the geohash location, because we got lost. We made a wrong turn and ended up on the road to the bridge, rather than the Aple Store. We had a laugh at that. How we managed to ACCIDENTALLY arrive at our final destination, FIRST, is beyond me. But we did it, and it was fun.

Unfortunately we didn't take ANY pictures of that, because the area was so dreary that we had nothing to look at. But we were there, dammit.

We got lost on the way home, which was also funny, but using our super awesome Compass that we picked up at a Pawn Shop this morning, we were able to get back on the road and ended up at another Apple Store and then made it home.

I know we did more (eat, shop for hats, etc) but honestly I'm pretty tired so I will leave it at that.

Thursday, June 5, 2008

What do I treasure...

hmm... TREASURES ARE A BUNCH OF BULLSHIT!

Just kidding Jayson... to some extend. One must understand the way I live, I normally seek out practically and individual need/style first. To me, anything can be a treasure as long as it has a meaning to me. (This also explains why I can easily throw out something when it's no longer in use.)

However, this normally makes things I treasure less valuable than what one would recognize as actual treasure such as gold or other rare finds. I normally end up valuing memories and written words more than precious metals. By written words I mean anything for a letter to textbooks (ie science and math) to poetry to lit. In the end, the reason I consider these treasures is because I believe when we truly enjoyed a book, we end up making it a part of ourselves, that we fused the ideals and ideas we gained into our souls.

Nevertheless, there's items I treasure as well. However, for different reasons. First off, all the clothes I wear are treasures by default since they fit me, in size and lifestyle. I guess it's kind of like how in a video game, a character's personalized gear at times is considered a legendary item.

My legendary items are of course my iPhone, all my carbiners (or crap-binders), fitted jeans, collared shirts, and boots. You will always find them on my person, but why? Well, I think what makes them treasures is what I believe they are to me and what they stand for:

1. iPhone - a device that makes people envy or pity you basically. I personally gotten the device out of all the technological advancements, but as I soon learn there's a few flaws as well. Moreover, I got the iPhone not to impressed people, but to annoy people, since a lot of my friends were anti-iPhone/Mac (YES! THEY DESERVE TO DIE! AND I HOPE THEY BURN IN HELL, just kidding of course *supporter of Mac and Linux*). In the end, all of this made me design my iPhone to be a part of me. On it are all the applications I would ever need everyday, moreover, to many of my friends amusement, I found ways to convert it to an e-reader, a notepad, a flashlight, a video camera, a weapon at times, and other things. MY iPhone is a treasure to me not because it's an iPhone, but its become a symbol of resistance and multitasking-- unbreakable, has its pros and its cons, rebellious, and just damn right unbelievable at times-- sounds like anyone we know?

2. Carbiners/crap-binders - carbiners are those clips that were made for mountain climbing, being converted to use as a key holder for people whom need to carry a lot of keys, and recently became a sort of rebel fashion. The first time I really seen carbiners outside of my house (my father is a custodian, so he had many carbiners for work, and he gave me my first ones) was on a friend who was an emo punk. However, I used it less of a fashion statement... at least I think I did... and more for practicality. Nevertheless, that impression of working/rebel/failure-in-life that these pieces of metal seem to carry also attracted me to the heavy usage of them. The funny part is I call them crap-binders since I use them to hold basically what I consider crap to my person e.g. keys, wallet, papers, flashdrives, canteens, computer hardware, etc. This on top of my overall "I hate how I'm attached to the waist to crap" reflects my own philosophy of that we must work and carry a burden for our worth, that life is full of crap, but the more crap we can deal with, the better.

3. Fitted jeans - finding jeans that fit me is awesome, okay! That and they are boot-cut jeans too! What's more awesome than that? Skinny jeans that don't make you look preppy or emo, but like a working man.

4. Collared shirts - Collared shirts have existed for a long time. The collar itself always seemed to have a sense of mystery. It's used to hide faces, to reflect status, and most of all protect the neck. Now why I wear only collared shirts?! The answer is out of burden. As I mentioned, the collar is used to hide one's face at times and protect their neck, those are two reasons I always wear a collar, but also a collared shirt is the shirt of a uniform. Since senior year, I made this uniformed look ( think of like Steve Jobs), that I wore only collared shirts, the reason was I was always having to go to interviews, meetings, and other crap that required a sense of professionalism. Soon, I just started wearing collared shirts on days where there's no scheduled crap. In the end, this helped gave my "working appearance", that I am always working and that I will never rest till the job is done-- even if the job is hobby or pleasure. [On a side note: yes, even my night/sleeping clothes have collared shirts, this is however only for when I know I will be doing an all-nighter or working in my bedroom.]

5. Boots - I started wearing boots after high school; I actually brought my boots when I decided to go to UC Santa Cruz. The reason why now I wear only boots, not only because of the terrain, but because boots stand for something. Boots are the shoes of the fleeting, the charging, the young and adventurous-- and I really needed these qualities over the years to come... and I wished I had them before!

In closing, there you go guys, those are just a few of my treasures. I leave you with this though:
so put your faith in more than steel
don't store your treasures up, with moth and rust
where thieves break in and steal


Monday, June 2, 2008

You found that where?

Today I went dumpster diving.

I found myself utterly mystified at what ended up being left in this dumpster. Among the trash and the hundreds of VHS tapes, there were a pair of nearly new blue jeans, a few shirts, and other clothing that easily could have been donated to the local thrift store or salvation army.

My brother thinks I'm crazy for pulling clothes out of a dumpster, but after running them through the wash they will look good as new, and I guarantee you no one will be the wiser as to where they came from.

My hope was to find old mechanical items that I could deface and make into other things such as Steampunk Jewelry, (see my favorites; {1} {2} {3} {4}) but I started far too late and I lost daylight before I could sift deep enough below the many layers of VHS tapes.


They say one mans trash is another man's treasure. I wouldn't call clothing treasure, but its certainly something I can use that would be better served on me than in a landfill.

Friday, May 30, 2008

By your death bed, I am dear world

"Love is watching someone die... so who's going to watch you die?"

This quote as been in my head for about a week now. It is a good question though, who will be by your death bed, watching you die? Moreover, isn't it a depressing and scary thought to think that since no one is willing to be there with you in your final moments, that you are loveless. The quote however brings up feelings of hate for me; anger at those I know I would be there for them... yet they will rather leave me to die alone.

Nevertheless, this quote carries on to me about the current food crisis worldwide.
I been keeping track of the this food crisis since last year actually, reading about it on National Geographic, yet this week, I really got on it since now we have videos from BBC and The Real News Network have sent reporters with cameras to document the effects of this crisis.

What really gets to me is how they always follow a loving family--mother, father, children-- and how they are trying to survive despite how hard they try and how much they care about each other. It's so sweet how these families are it's damn right unamerican with how American families are today.

And yet, who's the one not starving?! The loving family, no. It's the Americans. I think we are so sheltered from sad realities of not only the world outside our gates but as well as we are in denial of problems. I guess this is why America is the land of bliss, eh?

Nevertheless, I want to watch the other families from these third world countries; maybe someday I can do something, maybe even revenge them. This is where the relation comes in:
"Love is watching someone die... so who's going to watch you die?"
If you know me, you'll know that in reality I am a very passionate humanitarian and that I am very caring and fatherly; the reason why I have this appeal of evil intend and such is because in all honesty, I hate certain people: the rich, the selfish, the ignorant, and the undeserving. Sadly, I hate to say this, but that's to a part of this society that the American people have placed, and who can blame them, they are so happy, but I'm not.

Hopefully, we won't have to be watching our children cry in pain of hunger... Nevertheless, I watch on, being there in case they spot they stand becomes their death bed.



Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Screech crash.

I got into an accident today. No I wasn't hurt. Yes my car is ok. But it really made me open my eyes as to whats going on with the freeways.

A semi truck had stopped in the rightmost lane of the freeway in order to change lanes to the left. Moving from a stop to a crawl to change lanes on a freeway is a fucking terrible idea, and frankly I think this trucker should lose his license for such an act of stupidity. Never in the history of forever is it acceptable to move 5 miles per hour on a 70 mph freeway. However I do give the trucker some credit for not forcing his way into oncoming traffic like a bully.

The problem here is that he decided to change lanes when I was barreling towards him at 70 miles an hour. With no where to go but forward, I had no choice but to slam on my brakes and come to a screeching halt mere feet from the truck. And then I was rear ended.

There was a very minor scratch on my bumper, but nothing more. I didn't even look at the other guy's car because frankly I did not care, and legally he is at fault for rear ending me, and if I did not care then I'm sure he was relieved.

I make a point to let all trucks that need to change lanes do it in front of me. I will purposely slow down and impede traffic behind me to clear some space for a truck to move, because I know how hard it must be to drive that mammoth around. And also because I hate getting run off the road by an asshole trucker.

Monday, May 26, 2008

Creative problem solving.

How do we assess and solve a problem? As humans, I mean, most of us would tend to follow a basic pattern. Assess the situation, think logically about possible solutions, apply the solution that would appear to work the best, repeat if necessary. Its a very clear cut human process.

The process itself is not the thing that separates people, but how they choose to go about the process. Some people take measurements, chart graphs, calculate, analyze, work within the realm of what they know and what they have done before. Others like to stretch those bounds and try to apply something so wild eyed and crazy that no one thinks its going to work until it does.

When bound by conventional means it is often easy to forget even the most basic methods of solving a problem. For so long we have been Dependant on machines and computers and calculators and automatic power tools that the solutions of those many generations older than us are forgotten in the mist of time. This is not exactly a bad thing, but when you do not have the aid of modern conventions, how do you solve a modern problem?

An example, Wally Wallington presents the problem:
How did stone-age humans erect Stonehenge without the use of any modern tools?
The solution of course is simple. But you would never think of it in today's world, because we have all become attached to cranes and lifts and other modern tools that make a job like lifting a heavy object take mere minutes.

The ability to realize an alternative solution to a basic problem, that is creative problem solving.

Metaphysicalizing

Yes, I know that's not a real word first off.

But yeah, I noticed as I was working on improving my computer and iPhone how I was trying to get more done through the computer and electronic being instead of physical. What I mean is instead of having books and actual papers and such, I was trying to replace them with .pdf files and such. Making charts with openoffice.org, looking for ebooks to replace any future or current books I have.

Then I realized that a person I know might be more in tune with the world than I am, since she believes so deeply in physical being and in a way this made her kinda swallow, believing that its best to limit oneself to the tangible world.

I, on the other hand try my best to become more metaphysical. Relying less on physical things to do my betting, and more on my mind and electronics. But why? Why is there this tangible vs. metaphysical thing? (or as some will put cyber vs. steam)

Well, look at the pros of metaphysics. We have video games to simulate our wildest dreams. We play boardgames with no loss. We are physically sheltered in a metaphysical world, not worrying of death. Instead, the cost is deeper than just a bruise, its the rape of one's heart and mind at times. To experience something purely new and beyond oneself. Of course, one might say that I'm being a bit extreme, since a game is just a game.

Then again, any media/medium is just any media/medium. Think about the effects that media/medium has on you. It doesn't physically beat you up or try to kill you. It does something different, almost scary. Words are more threatening than pictures folks, pictures are just there, but words can describe so much more.

Nevertheless, I try my best to metaphysicalize, in an attempt of freedom. My current goal is developing my iphone into a better e-reader and to get a tablet pc to allow e-reading with note taking and such on the file. Hence having less physical books and such. I'm even trying to find where to buy e-manga to limit the amount of space. In the end I want to have just my bedding, my clothes, and electronics only in my room (neglecting food, soap, etc, stuff that will be consumed).

However, there's a greater freedom in metaphysics. I noticed that through the laws of physics and trained inquiry, a physicist (such as myself, despite much a novice) can easily handle physical tasks such as fitting a car or making an electrical generator, due to the metaphysical notions of electric.

I'm not going to say I'm totally metaphysical, but I believe that the best way to interact with the world is to have time to think about the deeper things that rule the world and such. That we should use metaphysics in the physical world.

An example of this that I love is Geo-Hashing.
Basically an algorithm, a series of mathematical procedures, given your location and the day, generates a coordinate. The game of Geo-Hashing is to go to that given coordinate.

As the wiki says:

"Geohashing is a Spontaneous Adventure Generator, brought to you by the xkcd webcomic."
Yet, this generator is totally metaphysical! It's just a bunch of mathematics that you use to create a physical adventure. Isn't that amazing!

I guess what I'm trying to get at is, maybe we should be chasing for things that are beyond money and living. Like honor, love, fame, glory, justice, freedom-- all only having value if we believe they have value.

- Edward U

P.S. I think this quote is about email
Men live in a fantasy world. I know this because I am one, and I actually receive my mail there.

Friday, May 23, 2008

i...What?!

Okay, so today I realized while getting apps for my iPhone, I almost don't use it as an actual cellphone. I use it more of a internet tablet, a notepad, an e-reader, a camera, a flashlight, a shield, a mirror, a planner, a mp3 player, a portable movie player, a recorder, a quick reference tool, etc.

However, I am very glad I am using it beyond a cellphone that I can grope. Though, I am a bit surprised that a new generation iPhone will be coming out this summer. Not that I'm pissed off I brought the iPhone a bit early, I'm more pissed off that they are going to call this new model a better model. The only plus side to it is true GPS (however this is possible on the current iPhone with some hacking) and G3 (but the EDGE network works fine). However, for just these (and supposely more memory, but really the iPhone isn't a flashdrive, and even then most flashdrives don't have 4 GB, yet alone 8 or 16 or 2^some number below 5) you get a plastic design (think the iPod Touch but the back is plastic too) and an extra $100+.

At this point, I need to step my foot down, saying "what the hell is going on?!". Oh well, enough ranting about the new, back to the good old and current.

As described in paragraph 1, the iPhone is a useful tool and I enjoy it a lot despite being a newly open-sourcer. The fact of the matter is, it's quite a useful tool.

So useful, I want a steampunk version of it! Don't you think an iPhone would be handy in a gunfight or something? Of course it will need to be outfitted and such to make it more worthy of a metal plate as a last resort and such.

Oh well, I'm rambling on about my iPhone now, but I have another topic to add.

I'd noticed that more and more, I try to put my dependency on less and less, i.e. instead of a bunch of crap, all in one in the iPhone. I think this is showing my distrust in general. I mean, if you think about it, if you be careful and only pick a few things or even people to be depend on, you are most likely to not be betrayed, of course you will also end up more fucked if you are.

I bring this up in relation to the ballad The Taw Corbies (The Two Crows).
Where basically a knight who dies in battle is abandoned by his "loyal" friends (symbolized as a hawk and hound) and his lover after hearing about his dead doesn't mourn nor care, she finds a new lover (In the Netherlands' version, his lover played a role of killing him). Thus, leaving his corpse to be eaten by two crows.

What I am trying to get at is that maybe we should be more distrustful of people than we are. That we cannot trust a multitude of people and things, but we need to find ones we can truly trust and depend upon when we need them.

Many will say I am being a cynic for say such things, I believe I am just giving fair warning to all.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Offing yourself.

I've been thinking a lot about suicide lately. Not my own life, I have no reason to kill myself. But suicide in general, the act, the reason, why someone would feel the need to take their own life to "escape" all the pain.

Specifically though I've been thinking a lot about the method's people choose. Hanging, overdose, jumping off of bridges, all things that, in the physical sense, affect only the person killing themselves. To me, while the act of suicide is not acceptable, at least you are not injuring someone else.

What really gets me though is the people who are so angry at the world, or a specific person or group of persons, that they would take their own life and the lives of those around them, whether its a murder suicide, a suicide bomber, or a school shooting. How many times have you heard about those in the news lately?

Recently a friend of mine that I have grown distant from experienced a loss of two of her friends when a drunk driver hit their car head on driving on the wrong side of the 5 freeway. Reports were mixed up for a while as to what happened, and everyone at first concluded that it was a drunk driver who hit the car, killing 2 of the 4 passengers and injuring the remaining 2, in addition to killing himself in the process.

2 young ladies dead, 2 more people in critical condition, all by the results of one drunk driver. You could write it off like that. It would make a good story for drivers ed. "Don't drink and drive."

But the thing that makes this even worse is that they found a suicide note (not sure where, probably in the car) of the drunk driver. He apparently got drunk, decided he was going to off himself, wrote the note, and drove down the freeway looking to slam into anyone he could once he got up to speed.

So heres where I get into my issue of methods. Like I said, I don't agree with suicide, but I at least respect that most people have the decency to kill themselves and not someone else. But here we have someone so angry at the world, so horribly depressed with his own life, that he felt it was a good idea to ruin the lives of, potentially, 4 more people.

Now here is where things get really heart breaking. In this case, 2 girls died, to two lives are ruined. But those girls have parents, so 4 more lives are ruined. Siblings? Grandparents? The lives affected by death are not just the lives of the dead, but the lives of those around them as well.

And what if it had been another car? Something larger? Most SUV's nowadays seat at least 5 people, my grandma's Odyssey seats 7. What if he had nailed something that big with 7 people who were all friends, not related to each other. Each with a mother and a father, perhaps one or two siblings. 7 people + 14 parents + siblings + grandparents + friends + children? You're looking at a whole lot of fucking upset people who's lives will be altered forever.

All because one drunk asshole had to go and kill himself in a car, instead of with a bullet to the brain, or even a cold nap at the foot of a tall building.

Its sickening. Absolutely sickening. I don't even know the two girls who were killed, and I still feel awful.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

GET SICK

So I watched Sicko [Moore's documentary on Health Care]. And I realized we got ourselves into this huge problem. Namely, the only Western Country to have no universal health care plan. I believe I am fully correct to say the US is a second world country.

But in all seriousness, why the hell is America such a horrible place?! Even though European countries are far from perfect, they at least try to take care of everyone. No homeless people sleep on the streets, free health, constant aid to help citizens eat. Sure there'll a few ditches, but they continue to buffer them out as I speak.

What I am getting at is, this movie/piece of media is a reflection on the American commonplace. I will openly say that the American way is to live in fear, live in debt, not be able to go to Cuba, and be held down from someone above you. I say good people, that's one hell of an American dream you got there.

Of course, I can be bias and this film simply added more flames to my fire of "anti-Americanism", despite I believe deeply in freedom and the dreams that our forefathers set out.

Nevertheless, I feel like Americans are too sheltered from everything. And being sheltered from everything, develops a feeling of fear towards anything new, any change.

I'm the last person to say I accept change openly, but when it comes to something as unemotional, physically important, and generally needed... I pick up the flag of rebellion and change and fight.

Lastly, this brings me to something that surprises me. In Europe, if their country's government treated them the way our government does, they openly say they start a revolutionary war. Here in America, we should be able to rebel-- most guns in the world per capita (even more than the middle east), our poor are practically middle class in even some European countries, and the manpower. We just need to pick up some guns, buy a few weapons (since no one cares who buys weapons, as long as they pay, besides if we are rebelling, we aren't paying taxes, we might as well use our cash the same way the government does for defense), and rally in Washington DC.

And this isn't Un-American! Revolution is suppose to be the American way. Freedom is suppose to be the American way. Not starving to dead, pussy-footin', living in fear!

- Edward U

Past Blasting

Overall, I'm not a big TV person. I rarely watch it, and anything I do watch is a week or so old. As of right now, I really don't have a favorite show or program, and think most new shows suck more then an open door in a space station full of vacuums.

However, I did watch a lot of TV when I was a kid. Most of it was cartoons from Warner Bros or Nickelodeon (more so WB then Nick though), and I have fond memories of sitting around watching The Warner Brothers, and the Warner Sister, do crazy stuff in half an hour intervals.

Thank I was born in this age, since I've now been reliving these moments on this little thing called the internet (A.K.A. the internets, interwebs, or a series of tubes). These shows are becoming my favorites again, and while they can be childish at times, they usually are awesome.

For example, I just got done watching the first two episodes of Gargoyles. Not only is the title theme extremely epic (see here), but it has an interesting concept mixed with awesome voice actors(Goliath sounds radtacular). Also, it has a great music score combined with more drama then you'd expect from a kid's show. Sure, it can be kinda corny, and there is some animation rehashing, but it's still as awesome as ever.

Well, that's all I have time for today. Now if you excuse me, I'm going to watch Goliath lay the smack down on some military dudes.

I'm bad with titles.

Lets get this out of the way right off the bat. I am really bad with making titles for blog posts.

I don't like to play absolute favorites with anything in my life. As such the idea of a "favorite" TV show is difficult. There are many that I enjoy, but picking one standout all-time stellar show to represent myself entirely is just too difficult to me. Perhaps I'm too lazy to think hard enough to decide on a favorite.

I do have quite a few favorites though, too many to narrow down to just one. I'll pick a few to satisfy the theme.

Firefly was not a show I ever watched while it was on TV. I don't know what I was doing around the time that it was first broadcast, but I somehow managed to miss the entire running of this show and did not hear about it until sometime into my later teenage years. Even after hearing the name a lot I was never turned on to the show from the title alone, but after researching the show last year I finally decided to give it a go. This was before Stage6.com was closed, and so all of the episodes were on there for my enjoyment. I loved every minute of the series, and I'm sad that it was destroyed by the fox network.

Doogie Howser is a show I've just recently been turned on to. I was far too young to watch this show when it first aired, considering I was only a few years old, but thanks to websites like Hulu.com I am able to enjoy old television with ease. In fact, I do believe that Firefly is on Hulu as well. I think its time to go re-watch the pilot again.

I leave you with a slice of my childhood that I feel is worthy of posting. I promise I won't talk about Hulu anymore in this entry.

Firefly...Oh man. I may be a sucker for nrrrd grrrls, but does anyone else think that Jewel Staite is really, really cute? I think she is.

Season Finale

So this is the end of this blog. I mean, this is a new beginning.

I had a notion that through this blog we can see how different we all are, and through this see why we are all together posting on this damn thing. SO, enough with the formal crap! Anyone saw the season finale of House MD on Fox?!

I have to admit, I was starting to think this finale would suck in the first 30 minutes, but wow, they really clean up in the second half. It was almost like getting knocked outside the head with a sag of bricks, or to get 5 Volts to the brain (like House). The sad thing was, I started doing the physics of getting a current through your brain... it is quite danger (as 1 Ampere/A/amp is enough to kill you you know).

Nevertheless, the ending got me thinking... do I have [a] best friend[s]? In the end, it seem like House lost his only best friend.

Oh well, this now gives me an idea for this weeks theme. This weeks theme is Television.
You must make a post about your favorite show and how you relate to it. I believe we watch/read stories for something to relate to or something that's totally opposite to our situation, wishing we were there.

Lastly, I haven't been drinking... till today.

- Edward MU

P.S. Drinking fixes everything! XP